Kerbe & Celestene

MOVED!

2012-01-23T00:11:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday Haihui.

2012-01-15T13:40:00.000+08:00

Just got into another car accident.

I'm scared. I can't stop trembling. I can't stop re-playing what happened two years ago and just now. Help me.

Mai mi samong.

2012-01-08T11:37:00.000+08:00

http://celestenekng.blogspot.com

2011-08-23T13:36:00.001+08:00

How many 29s do you want to waste? Tell me.

2011-08-23T04:15:00.002+08:00

Please be safe. Please do not be angry when you see the note. Please do not give up on me yet. Please think of what would be best for us. Please know that I'm still the same Celestene. Please understand why I hate your friends so much. Please remember me.

Can you tell me why would happen if nothing actually happened between us?
Would we be happy now?
Would I still cry to sleep?
Would you still get irritated by me?

We used to be us.
What happened?

2011-08-19T17:21:00.000+08:00

To be naive I tot you really gonna stay at home and change to show me. Wanted ask you to go rounding with me tonight. In the end ? I with yl waiting for kath. WTF ? You need to stick with him every fucking single day meh ? eh you don't know what's enough meh ? Why you fucking need to be with him every fucking fucking single day ? You really love to hear from my mouth scolding those words to you ? I tried to control, I already never pillion girls. Then ? Asking me change all sorts then you ley ? Fair to me anot ? You like to meet him so much right ? You tonight better don't see me outside. I guarantee you I will fetch other girl. Since you love to spend every single mins and sec with him right ? Never meet will die right ? I'll show you.

2011-08-19T14:15:00.000+08:00

下雨了站在玻璃门里头
并没有总是挂念着我
你带着雨伞来接我
夜晚了只剩老板跟我
像从前你抽着烟皱眉头
不知怎么安抚太任性的我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼爱我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再庇护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了
手写的留言对象已经不会是我
停雨了不必再躲雨了
已经过了该打烊的时候
还是不太想走
太晚了只能坐计程车
为什么想念着摩托车
常常会半路熄火的后座
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你放弃爱我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再庇护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了
长长的简讯对象已经不会是我
走在湿漉漉红砖道上
沿着导盲砖试着假装
的确有点困难
也许我就这样走路回家
反正你不再在乎几点
该几点回到家
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你再也不疼我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再保护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你放弃爱我以后
来不及了
对不起长大太慢
害你遗失了我
抱歉让你白费了这么多

I feel so lost now.

2011-08-19T01:12:00.000+08:00

I'm changing but are you? No.

2011-08-19T00:52:00.001+08:00

You sit in car look at me. With guys. what do you expect me to do? I rather treat you as stranger sorry. go out with guys better than with me. shiok right ? See how you look in the car. I didn't expect to see you here. I try to close one eye, but you got limit anot ? Keep on go out with guys every single day. Makes you look like what. Enough Celest. Enough alr. You will only make me hate you more and more day by day. Seriously I can confirm we back to Tgt confirm won't be last time. You can't tahan staying at home. We will quarrel for you will be going out with your bestfriend. I will end here. Will you change depends on you. Don't keep use he broke up with girlf need friend. He no friend meh ? Think about it. Got him there won't be me. I'm selfish.

2011-08-18T18:28:00.000+08:00

I'm still your number one? Should I stupidly believe it ?
If I'm your number one you wouldn't be hanging outside now.
When I saw this " you are number one " I laughed.
Please think before you speak.

Well I guess I should go and find my best friend later on.
Maybe I will be going her house to watch tv or DVD bah.

Everything will change after we together?
I doubt so. It's hard for you. :)

Till the day of 13sept. We'll see.

2011-08-18T17:44:00.000+08:00

Celestene. If I tell you I used to had a best friend. And I'm currently very close to her. Cause she just broke up with her boyf. And I'm meeting her every single day. She asked me out. And Im currently at her house now. What's your reaction ? How would you feel ? Tell me girl. Tell me.

Where's the love ?

2011-08-14T06:48:00.000+08:00

爱呢　爱呢
我们的　爱呢
你在怀里藏什么
挤得抱不紧我
在你胸口找温柔
只找到一片沙漠
没有弧度的笑容
没有温度的手
慢慢倾斜的天空
一片一片哦～～
正迅速压垮着我
爱呢
爱呢　你的爱呢
你呢
你呢　我的你呢
从前的
从前的　那些快乐
变了
变了　没了
难道你真舍得
真舍不得
心呢　被弄痛了
承诺呢　被丢弃了
我的　爱呢
你把它给谁了
你在回味什么
嘴唇没空吻我
想再听你说爱我
只听到一阵沉默
是不是我迷了路
走进别人的梦中
原本熟悉的亲密
变成陌生的问候
知道世界很善变
没想到连你也变
我好怀念你刚开始爱上我的那天

2011-08-13T06:03:00.002+08:00

Do you know how worried I am for you everyday ?
At least you reached home send me a msg I would be glad.
Tonight you didn't send me, not a single msg.
I woke up, I didn't receive your msg you know how panicked am I?
The reason you gave me, you're sleepy.
No matter how you will take a bath before go to bed.
Now you told me you're at home. I don't know should I trust you anot.
How you want me to believe.
You dont even wanna prove yourself to me.

Wo zhen de hen xinku.
Can you come back to me sooner?
I need assurance baby.
Please.

2011-08-12T06:08:00.002+08:00

Baby, remember all this ?

I'm sorry.

2011-08-11T10:13:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry for breaking up with you.
I'm sorry for breaking up your heart.
I'm sorry for leaving early on our 2 years.
I'm sorry for leaving you for her.
I'm sorry for our 6th monthsary.
I'm sorry for my bad temper.
I'm sorry for my lousy attitudes.
I'm sorry for my ego.
I'm sorry for hitting you when we quarrelled.
I'm sorry for scolding you infront of my friends.
I'm sorry for venting my anger on you.
I'm sorry for betraying you while we were in a relationship.
I'm sorry for making you don't dare to joke with me.
I'm sorry for making you kena said by my friends that you're useless.
I'm sorry for the scar on your arm.
I'm sorry for the scar on your heart.
I'm sorry for spending your money when I don't have any.
I'm sorry for treating you like shit instead of gem.
I'm sorry for treating you like a maid instead of princess.
I'm sorry for not giving you much attention.
I'm sorry for not giving you much love.
I'm sorry for saying stuffs that is too much for a girl.
I'm sorry for accusing you a slut or a bitch.
I'm sorry for the tears I've made you cried.
I'm sorry for erasing the things we both used to write on the wall.
I'm sorry for the pain I've given you.
I'm sorry for being paranoid.
I'm sorry for being cheap.
I'm sorry for letting you sleep alone in the night.
I'm sorry for letting you have you meals alone.
I'm sorry for enjoying out there while you're having fever.
I'm sorry for accusing you when your tummy is in pain.
I'm sorry for saying you childish.
I'm sorry for not being the one to be with you when you're upset.
I'm sorry for being a lousy boyfriend.

Baby, i want you back badly, I miss you so much, I still love you.
I don't want to be alone,
I don't want to sleep alone,
I don't want to go out alone,
I don't want to eat alone,
I don't want to do anything without you.
I miss your hugs,
I miss your kisses,
I miss your smiles,
I miss your eyes,
I miss you.

I will change for you. This time it won't be a empty promised.
Kngjiaxin&Nijunlong.
290709, 1905hrs.
Forever and ever.
From this moment,
You're still the one,
Till the end, the only person I want now, is You.

2011-08-11T03:40:00.001+08:00

What you told in msg was ridiculous. Since that's the case I will slowly get over you if that's what you want. Bear with me for awhile more. When the day I stop msg you, I will stop loving you.

Yeah, well I deserved it. I broke up with you for her. It's my fault. I just hope you can for the sake on we Tgt for two years. How we contact back after a misunderstanding. I promised you, I won't let you be alone again, wherever I go I'll bring you, bring you anywhere whenever I'm free, please I really do love you please come back to me celest. Let me be your everything, your one and only one once again. I swear I won't leave you again no matter what. Remember ? Once mine forever mine ? Please come back.

Forgive me will you ?

2011-08-11T01:48:00.001+08:00

我走了，也许我们在一起是错的
一起这么久了，你有在乎过我吗?
你的脸贴在我胸口
泪水早已渗透我的衣袖
你我都沉默了许久
不该说的话你终于说出口
拥抱过后你转身就走
我笑着说再见心却在颤抖
我已没有勇气问你
离开的理由
想说声爱你已很久
可我从来都没有
以前我对你不够好
我也很难受
只怪自己当初没有抓紧你的手
失去了你我才知道你有多重要
现在说后悔也没有用
心虽然很痛
只怪自己当初没有将爱说出口
现在想说声爱你已找不到借口
失去你以后
我连呼吸也好难受
独白：
其实我..
什么也不用说了，
希望以后，
你能学会怎么去爱一个人，
好了，自己多保重吧，可昕,可昕..
拥抱过后你转身就走
我笑着说再见心却在颤抖
我已没有勇气问你
离开的理由
想说声爱你已很久
可我从来都没有
以前我对你不够好
我也很难受
只怪自己当初没有抓紧你的手
失去了你我才知道你有多重要
现在说后悔也没有用
心虽然很痛
只怪自己当初没有将爱说出口
现在想说声爱你已找不到借口
失去你以后
我连呼吸也好难受
只怪自己当初没有抓紧你的手
失去了你我才知道你有多重要
现在说后悔也没有用
心虽然很痛
只怪自己当初没有将爱说出口
现在想说声爱你已找不到借口
失去你以后
我连呼吸也好难受
独白:其实我很爱你

Ms29, I don't know what can I do to make you come back to me. You said you want time.
I know I disappoint you, never care about your feeling. You're not giving me chance. We've no time for each other. I'm going to start work soon.then how you want us to be Tgt again ? How you want us like start to know each other again ? You said after your birthday you will stop contacting them. I'm giving us 1 month till your birthday. If after one month we're cant be with each other then I think it's really end of 29.girl I want you back, I want you back badly. I know all this causes by me, but all I need is one last chance baby. I love you and I really do. Now I know how is it like to loved someone but couldn't feel the love back. I know how you feel already.i hope you're not trying to revenge or play with my feelings. I'm sorry for what I dud. I will try to change my temper by your birthday. I love you celestene. I want you back badly.Please you can have best friend, but why must it be a guy? It makes me uncomfortable. I miss you.

2011-08-05T20:12:00.000+08:00

飞机已离开机场
你选择了前往你的方向不再迷惘
忘了我们爱的过往
忘了我给你的伤学会坚强

从前的我不懂你牺牲多大
为我失去朋友不讲
还放弃了所有梦想
觉得没怎样不会将心比心去想
让你慢慢慢慢失去了希望

能不能夠再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜请你相信我的心还是爱你

我想再重来一次
回到过去弥补你的伤没那种事
怎么做才能夠停止
后悔竟伤你如此不再放肆

为何总到失去才懂的难过
当你在我身边的时候总是为我默默守候
都是为我的错错过这难得的拥有
就让你爱我的心慢慢溜走

能不能夠再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜请你相信我的心还是爱你

I miss you. I want you back. I want the Old celestenekngjiaxin. I regretted. I'm sorry. From this moment, you're still the one, till the end. Come back to me baby, can I have you back mrs 29 ?

What are words

2011-05-18T17:00:00.002+08:00

Hope nobody will copy it hahahahaha!

下雨天了　怎麼辦　我好想你
不敢打給你　我找不到原因
为什麼失眠的聲音
變得好熟悉
沈默的場景做你的代替
陪我等雨停
it's raining what should i do, i miss you so
i don't dare to call you, i can't find a reason
why have the sounds of insomnia
become so familiarthe silent scenery is your replacement
waiting for the rain to stop with me

期待讓人越來越沉溺
誰和我一樣
等不到他的誰
愛上你我總在學會
寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘　一個人擦淚　一個人好累
anticipation makes one more and more indulged
is there anyone like me
i'm unable to meet that someone
in love with you i've always been learning
the taste of loneliness
holding an umbrella alone, wiping my tears alone, it's so tiring being alone

怎樣的雨　怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大　天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼
what kind of rain, what kind of night
what kind of me will make you miss me more
how heavy need the rain be and how dark the sky
before i can have your concern

其實　沒有我你分不清那些差別
結局那還能多明顯
別說你會難過
別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉
actually, without me you can't tell the difference
how much clearer can the ending get
don't say you will be sad
don't say you want to change
the one being loved needn't apologise

期待讓人越來越疲憊
誰和我一樣
等不到他的誰
愛上你我總在學會
寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘　一個人擦淚　一個人好累
anticipation makes one more and more tired
is there anyone like me
i'm unable to meet that someone
in love with you i've always been learning
the taste of loneliness
holding an umbrella alone, wiping my tears alone, it's so tiring being alone

怎樣的雨　怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大　天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼
what kind of rain, what kind of night
what kind of me will make you miss me more
how heavy need the rain be and how dark the sky
before i can have your concern

其實　沒有我你分不清那些差別
結局那還能多明顯
別說你會難過
別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉
actually, without me you can't tell the difference
how much clearer can the ending get
don't say you will be sad
don't say you want to change
the one being loved needn't apologise

怎樣的雨　怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大　天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼
what kind of rain, what kind of night
what kind of me will make you miss me more
how heavy need the rain be and how dark the sky
before i can have your concern

其實　沒有我你分不清那些差別
結局那還能多明顯
別說你會難過
別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉
actually, without me you can't tell the difference
how much clearer can the ending get
don't say you will be sad
don't say you want to change
the one being loved needn't apologise

Kerbe?

2011-04-05T14:39:00.001+08:00

I want to be her. So badly.

Enoygh

2011-04-04T20:08:00.001+08:00

I won't bother to argue or quarrel with you anymore. Do whatever you want to. I'll just do my best. As long as I know I've done my best. That's all I can do. Do whatever you want. I love you. I need love too...

I love you.

2011-03-26T03:21:00.001+08:00

Hi Kerbe. Will you read this? I want you to know this. I love you. But I can't be the only one loving. I need you to love me too. I love you so much it hurts. If you ever feel the way I do, trust me, you would cry too. I've never felt so in love. Never so certain. Never so crazy. Sometimes I feel neglected. I do a lot to get your attention. I get on your nerves a lot. But please know I love you and that I care for you. I don't know what will happen after you send me home later.

Please love me again.
3:15 AM

2011-03-17T22:45:00.002+08:00

Not a simple sorry will do.

nights.

Sick

2011-03-01T17:41:00.001+08:00

I don't care who reads this. I hate pretending.

I am lonely.
I am sensitive.

Not helping much either.

I hope you jnow.

2011-03-01T00:40:00.001+08:00

I hope you know. I'm just a girl. I don't like being neglected. I don't like to be treated well when you're happy and to be treated badly when you're unhappy. I have feelings too. Don't blame me for everything. In 15 days I'll be gone. Will you miss me? Will you do some reflection? I hope you know I need attention too. No, just bringing me out with your friends isn't quality time. I want some me time too. I want to be special. When will you start to appreciate me? We used to talk about everything. Now you're so impatient and snappy. I don't like this. I hope you know everything I'm doing. I hope you know..

What if you're not mine anymore? I don't know what to say.

Happy 19 months.
I tried making you happy.

Happy 2nd valentines day!

2011-02-15T02:28:00.004+08:00

It's 2:08am now. Just finished watching titanic. Teared a little when Jack died. I dreamt of myself dying last night too.. And I got transported to another "world". NOT a pleasant dream. :( everytime I wake up from a nightmare I will wake baby up. Baby will hug me tightly and tell me "don't scared, don't scared."

I held on to baby's hand the whole time during the show.

Woke up on valentines due to that nightmare. Read dear's SMS. He told me to prepare as he was bringing me somewhere romantic. Hehehe. Woke up and prepared. Pasted our pictures all over his room. :) will post pictures soon! Thanks Cymbeline for printing for meee. Hehe.

Bathed and prepared in time for baby's arrival. Haha. He surprised me by giving me flowers made from vegetable!! He did it while working. I know he felt so guilty not giving me real flowers but I understand. He's been spending a lot on his bike. Especially his sprocket! He told me to wait for my full face. :)

Prepared and refilled his 2T before going off to Raffles Marina. We got lost once or twice but luckily we found the way! :) reached there and I wanted spaghetti but he said he wanted something more expensive as his mother told him to bring me out for a good meal! So he ordered 2 ribeye steaks plus my spaghetti. The spaghetti was shared by the both of us. He age most of it as I was super full after eating the steak! Had chowder soup too. ;) mango lassi for me and cranberry for baby. Hehe.

While eating I was feeling so happy. I know baby's wallet is very tight now and he has to pay his installment tomorrow. He wanted a Kup Kia at first but because he knows that I like sports bike, he bought his aprilia. Even though it's expensive he has never blamed me. Thank you baby. Thank you for pampering me. Although at times you say the worst stuffs and at times I get so angry I feel like killing you, I love you. I love you so much.

Finished eating and went back to baby's house. Watched once a gangster and baby fell asleep at 12am after wishing me happy valentines day again. :)

I love you. Happy 2nd valentines day baby.
Everyday is valentines with you.
Thank you for making the effort today.

Tomorrow enroll car and pay installment loooo!
Next time got estima, BMW or lotus sit go out looo! HAHAHAHAHA.

LOTUS AND BMW PLS WAIT AWHILE MORE!!

Sorty

2011-02-10T01:41:00.003+08:00

Make me feel like you need me. Sorry I didn't give in this time.

Will you miss the smell of my face?
Will you miss waking up to me lying on your chest?
Will you miss me waking you up when you're lazy?
Will you miss me trying to carry you up?
Will you miss me trying to hold on to everything that reminds me of you?
Will you miss me writing on the wall?
Will you miss hugging me from the back watching the television?
Will you miss the smell of my pillow?
Will you miss how I have to bathe every night?
Will you miss how I drink only a mouth of water no matter how big the cup is?
Will you miss me nagging at you?
Will you miss me telling you every morning to be careful?
Will you miss receiving letters from me?
Will you miss fetching me?
Will you miss reading the blog?
Will you miss my kisses?
Will you miss my stupid face?
Will you miss me?

There's so much things that I'll miss.
But I don't know if you're going to or not.

We'll know tomorrow.

I'm too tired to hold on but too in love to let go.

I hate you.

2011-02-09T13:53:00.005+08:00

Am I still your little princess?

Am I trying too hard?
Tell me.

>

I love kerbe.

2011-02-04T02:41:00.004+08:00

Just sometimes.

2011-02-02T02:36:00.002+08:00

Just sometimes, I would like to throw a temper too. Just sometimes, I would like to cry too. Just sometimes, I would like to be unreasonable too. Just sometimes, I would like to shout and scream at you too. Just sometimes, I would like to be angry too. Just sometimes, I would like to be in your arms and not be judged. Just sometimes... I would very much want to be loved by you.

I feel sad.
I feel wronged.
I feel angry.
I feel tired.

I still love you. Why?

2011-01-23T02:13:00.003+08:00

I forgot about the sacrifices you did. Then I realized. You sacrificed. You did. Once upon a time.

這次我走開再沒有話要說出來
zhe ci wo zou kai zai mei you hua yao shuo chu lai
我不想再期待走下去還能多精彩
wo bu xiang zai qi dai zou xia qu hai neng duo jing cai
我不瞭解你怎能心安
wo bu liao jie ni zen neng xin an
也抓不住你的倔強
ye zhua bu zhu ni de jué jiàng
可是我知道你你為什麼說謊
ke shi wo zhi dao ni ni wei shen me shuo huang

你說你還在一分一秒也沒走開
ni shuo ni hai zai yi fen yi miao ye mei zou kai
我想留在這裏可是這一切已太晚
wo xiang liu zai zhe li ke shi zhe yi qie yi tai wan
我不能再像從前一樣
wo bu neng zai xiang cong qian yi yang
為我們的明天瘋狂
wei wo men de ming tian feng kuang
你不必解釋你為什麼說謊
ni bu bi jie shi ni wei shen me shuo huang

你不能說我沒有愛過說我沒等過難過
ni bu neng shuo wo mei you ai guo shuo wo mei deng guo nan guo
我也想說也許能重來我卻還是沉默
wo ye xiang shuo ye xue neng cong lai wo que hai shi chén mò
你一直問我的心到底在不在
ni yi zhi wen wo de xin dao di zai bu zai
問我怎能不遺憾就丟失愛
wen wo zen neng bu yi han jiu dui shi ai
而我的淚怎麼就流下來
er wo de lei zen me jiu liu xia lai

你說你還在一分一秒也沒走開
ni shuo ni hai zai yi fen yi miao ye mei fen kai
我想留在這裏可是這一切已太晚
wo xiang liu zai zhe li ke shi zhe yi qie yi tai wan
我不能再像從前一樣
wo bu neng xiang cong qian yi yang
為我們的明天瘋狂
wei wo men de ming tian feng kuang
你不必解釋你為什麼說謊
ni bu bi jie shi ni wei shen me shuo huang

你不能說我沒有愛過說我沒等過難過
ni bu neng shuo wo mei you ai guo shuo wo mei deng guo nan guo
我也想說也許能重來我卻還是沉默
wo ye xiang shuo ye xue neng cong lai wo que hai shi chén mò
你一直問我的心到底在不在
ni yi zhi wen wo de xin dao di zai bu zai
問我怎能不遺憾就丟失愛
wen wo zen neng bu yi han jiu dui shi ai
而我的淚怎麼就流下來
er wo de lei zen me jiu liu xia lai

你不能說我沒有愛過說我沒等過難過
ni bu neng shuo wo mei you ai guo shuo wo mei deng guo nan guo
我也想說也許能重來我卻還是沉默
wo ye xiang shuo ye xue neng cong lai wo que hai shi chén mò
你一直問我的心到底在不在
ni yi zhi wen wo de xin dao di zai bu zai
問我怎能不遺憾就丟失愛
wen wo zen neng bu yi han jiu dui shi ai
而我的淚怎麼就流下來
er wo de lei zen me jiu liu xia lai

你一直問我的心到底在不在
ni yi zhe wen wo de xin dao di zai bu zai
問我怎能不遺憾就丟失愛
wen wo zen neng bu yi han jiu dui shi ai
而我的淚怎麼就流下來
er wo de lei zen me jiu liu xia lai

2011-01-23T02:07:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY THE MOST IMPORTANT GUY IN MY LIFE AARON. :)

Woke up today & cabbed home to meet Cymbeline before we cabbed down to West Coast for our dental appointment. My teeth hurts so badly now! So tight!! Damn.

Went to West Mall after buying sushi. Waited half an hour for a fucking bus but it didn't came so we cabbed over instead. Wanted to buy lingerie but no sizes available so I bought $50 worth of panties for fun. HAHA. Met Pearlyn at the cab stand while Cymbeline went off while we cabbed over to SAFRA Jurong. Had our K session. We were shy initially as it was only our 3rd time meeting. Hehe. Sorry if I type weirdly. I'm in a fucking bad mood now!!

Finished singing went over to Jp & grabbed some finger food. Went to search for her contacts. Nice amethyst colour. Bought oozy meatballs! Last had it on my birthday with Kerbe. Kerbe texted me to meet me at SAFRA so I hurriedly bought him Oyster Meesua as I THOUGHT he liked it. He called me a fucking bitch for not meeting him at SAFRA when I already told him I was at Jp all along. But still, thanks for sending me over to your place. Told Kerbe that the meesua was for him & he said HENG he's hungry. Sorry for not asking Pearlyn over to SAFRA with me because she was going to the BUS INTERCHANGE to BUS BACK TO PANJANG to meet her boyfriend. Sorry for not PROVING that I was with her.

He went over to Dragonfly for his Mum's birthday. He told me he would be home by 1am. He told me he wouldn't be drinking. He told me he would be smsing me. He told me he would tell me when he's reached there. He hasn't done one of them. I just really need to vent my anger now. You told me I could meet my friends when you were working. This is the first time I met ANY friends since you started working. Let's not count how often I met them previously. I thought that you didn't like me staying in your house while you were working so okay, I met Pearlyn. But? Not once, not twice, EVERY TIME I meet my friends you pick a quarrel. Sometimes all I want is a bit of understanding. You flared up at me for not answering your call during a movie with Pearlyn. You're not replying any SMS-es. Should I flare up? SHOULD I?

I feel so selfish now. But can you really blame me?

I'm just a girl.

2011-01-21T21:53:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday little brother Aaron Kng!!
Grow up Liao. Stop breaking girls' hearts!
Jiejie love you many many.
I don't know mei love u not. HAHAHAHA.

2011-01-21T17:55:00.001+08:00

Interested in high waist shorts? 2 to let go. Too big for me. Pictures tonight. :)

Worn but in perfect condition. :) interested formspring me. Email will be fine too.

Kerlestene@hotmail.com

*hope these helps!!

2011-01-14T22:14:00.000+08:00

One year since the accident.. The scars have not faded.
Please prioritize me this year.

2011-01-08T21:17:00.002+08:00

Using galaxy tab to blog now. Fun! Hehe but talk on phone so loud! Iphone 4 or galaxy tab??

2011-01-06T01:38:00.002+08:00

should i put celestenekerbe.bs or kerbecelestene.bs?

2011-01-06T01:23:00.006+08:00

Christmas.

2010-12-27T02:22:00.004+08:00

Christmas eve.

2010-12-24T21:29:00.003+08:00

Hehe 9:26pm now. At shiquans house with Kerbe, Kelvin, shiquan, Roy, yijing, haihui, wenjie, Nelson, Freddy, Vivian, xiaopang, Vanessa now! Jessica left already. First time in my life I felt the christmas spirit!!!! Hahaha buffet and Christmas songs blasting!!

Merry Christmas!!!

Post Created Dec 22, 2010 8:45:59 PM

2010-12-22T20:47:00.003+08:00

hehe

2010-12-22T20:18:00.003+08:00

MY NEW LOVE!

2010-11-24T03:56:00.005+08:00

Hehe that is my face when I'm unhappy with something. Hehe.
The toys are toys baby caught for me with 12$. Hehehe. So proud of him.
THE COW IS CALLED NIUNIU. THAT IS BABY'S TOY NOW. HE MUST HUG IT TO SLEEP.
Baby loves me more now. Hehe. Muacks!
Watching holland v now! :)
Good luck for your 8.1 Tmr Hubby!

BRACES TOMORROW. PLEASE WISH ME LUCK. IM SCARED.

2010-11-12T01:04:00.006+08:00

Nobody will know I still have panic attacks.
Nobody will know I cry everytime I think about my ugly scars.
Nobody will know I scratch myself when I'm thinking too much.
Nobody will know I am very scared of losing anyone close to me.
Nobody will know I feel stressed everytime I think about anything.
Nobody will know I can't breathe properly when things don't go my way.
Nobody will know I feel giddy when I feel angry.
Nobody will know I eat nonstop when I'm stressed.
Nobody will know I press down my scars everyday hoping they will go away.
Nobody will know I have nightmares nearly almost everyday.
Nobody will know I cry when a car drives too quickly with me in it.
Nobody will know I clench my fist when the car I'm in jerks.
Nobody will know I feel so frustrated everytime I lose something.
Nobody will know I panic a lot.
Nobody will know I hit my head against the wall when I'm stressed.
Nobody will know I am afraid of losing friends so I don't get close with anyone anymore.
Nobody will know I miss everyone that was once my best friend.
Nobody will know I pray secretly whenever I cry very badly.
Nobody will know I can't stand the sound of teeth grinding together.
Nobody will know I wish the world was a better place.
Nobody will know I am such a bitch because I feel insecure.
Nobody will know I secretly miss those friends that I say that I hate.
Nobody will know I must drink a mouth of water before I sleep every night.
Nobody will know I literally shiver with fear when I'm alone.
Nobody will know I sometimes don't meet up with friends because I'm just scared.
Nobody will know I don't like meeting new people.
Nobody will know I don't like big crowds.
Nobody will know I hate the attention so much.
Nobody will know I cry everytime I think of how you sang a song to me.
Nobody will know I miss my Delphine so much.
Nobody will know I keep everything, even wrappers just because I can't bear to throw it away.
Nobody will know I try so badly everyday to keep up with this world.
Nobody will know I hate going out sometimes because I don't like dressing up.
Nobody will know I feel insecure because everyone is too good for me.
Nobody will know I love my family so much, too much, that I hate anyone who talks to them.
Nobody will know I love my boyfriend's family, even when they're mean.
Nobody will know I keep all receipts because I keep believing they're a part of my life.
Nobody will know I love reading, and I hate anyone who mocks me for it.
Nobody will know I loved writing long emails with her.
Nobody will know I worry about everything.
Nobody will know I feel so tired keeping up with everyone's pace.
Nobody will know I keep my neck when I'm feeling really happy.
Nobody will know I secretly wish I was 10 again.
Nobody will know I want everyone, even bad, evil people to be healthy.
Nobody will know I like writing everything out when I'm feeling strongly positively or negatively.
Nobody will know I secretly wish you sucked so I would feel better.
Nobody will know I wish I did many things differently.
Nobody will know I like songs that make me cry.
Nobody will know I miss Snowy a lot.
Nobody will know I miss Bunji a lot.
Nobody will know I cry when I think she doesn't miss us.
Nobody will know I love Baybee so much and that I'm sorry for neglecting him.
Nobody will know I hope I grew up differently.
Nobody will know I am a very sentimental person.
Nobody will know I wish Daddy and Mummy were proud of me more.
Nobody will know I prioritize you so strongly I let myself ignore what I want.
Nobody will know I really feel jealous when I say I hate someone.
Nobody will know I hate the 'delete' button so much.
Nobody will know I like watching movies because I get to sit 2 hours in the dark and relax.
Nobody will know I hate going to unfamiliar places.
Nobody will know I am really so, so, so afraid of getting close to anyone.
Nobody will know I will cross my hands behind when I'm shy.
Nobody will know I like blue and blue is the only colour I describe as secure.
Nobody will know I like sleeping next to you because I don't like being alone.
Nobody will know I am really thankful for everything in my life.
Nobody will know I would apologise to everyone that I've hurt if I could.
Nobody will know I hope I never grow up.
Nobody will know I think graduations are scary.
Nobody will know I like seeing people happy, then smile to myself.
Nobody will know I feel like giving old people a hug when I see them alone with a sad look.
Nobody will know I think my grandmother is the best woman in the world.
Nobody will know I miss my grandfather talking to me sweetly, again.
Nobody will know I love the way Daddy and Mummy shows me what a family is.
Nobody will know I really hope Mei Mei and Di Di will grow up to be happy and successful.
Nobody will know I would hate for my brother to be like me.
Nobody will know I hate it when me and Mei Mei quarrel and that I would cry quietly.
Nobody will know I think I've found the special someone, Kurbe, yet fear he'll be taken away.
Nobody will know I like Germaine and Eugene a lot.
Nobody will know I sometimes fear that Victor doesn't like me.
Nobody will know I think Kurbe's parents think I'm not good enough for him.
Nobody will know I feel a lot more confident when you call me your pretty girl.
Nobody will know I miss having friends I can rely on.
Nobody will know I miss having a friend coming over to my house to wake me up.
Nobody will know I hate people talking to my friends.
Nobody will know I am so very selfish because I'm insecure.
Nobody will know I am really trying my best to be the perfect daughter, sibling, girlfriend, friend.
Nobody will know I am crying so badly now.
Nobody will know I am so afraid things would change tomorrow.
Nobody will know I hate tomorrows so much.
Nobody will know I am proud because I want people to be my friends.
Nobody will know I keep a lot of notes in my phone.
Nobody will know I look at the time whenever I want to remember somethig special.
Nobody will know I like talking long walks alone.
Nobody will know I keep replaying the scene at the pool where I became yours.
Nobody will know I re-read our blog and cry.
Nobody will know I hate so much being a girl.
Nobody will know I think all my toys have lives and I talk to them a lot.
Nobody will know I am an introvert.
Nobody will know I am sorry for people I've said things to hurt them.
Nobody will know I feel like giving all my money away instead of just small changes when I see the less fortunate.
Nobody will know I secretly pray for them when I walk past.
Nobody will know I hate my scars so much!
Nobody will know I appreciate everybody that tried to nurture and help me.
Nobody will know I love you. If this isn't love, Kurbe, I don't know what it is.
Nobody will know I am taking a lot of courage to write this.

I have so much more to say.

You are Nobody.
And now Everybody knows.

2010-11-01T15:09:00.008+08:00

I STILL THINK BABY LOOK FUCKING JAP IN THIS NEOPRINT. LOL!!

Okie, short update!

Friday

Baby & me have reached our 16 monthsary!! Still a long way to go!! Hehe. Went to meet him at Maju awhile. Took a picture with him. That's like my most treasured picture now!! I miss him so much! :(

Met Pearlyn for Paranormal Activity 2! She's super sweet! Hehe.

Saturday

Went for dental appointment in the morning. I'M GOING TO HAVE BRACES!!

Went to Baby's house & played with Germaine. Hehe. Baby's Papa bought a new car! Baby's super excited. HAHA.

Sunday

Jp with Mummy in the afternoon. Bought the top I've been wanting for a long time! Thank you Mummy! Hehe. Mummy spent a lot yesterday! Had dinner at Choh Dee before packing food for Baby. Met Baby outside Maju. I was sitting at the stone chair but he ran towards the car instead.

He looked so cute when he realised I was behind him! LOL.

Marketing at BTP before going home.

Monday

Happy birthday Victor Guay! :)

2010-10-28T10:09:00.004+08:00

Heehee, my teeth hor!!! Now liu xing hor!! HAHA.

In the office now. Reached at 8am. Now it's 1030am but I haven't really started. I can't focus!! HELP!! Super tired now!! :(

I miss you so much it hurts..

BINGO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-10-27T16:04:00.006+08:00

It's time to start blogging again! Hehe.

Currently at Mummy's office! I've been working here for the past 3 days! Boring & tiring but since Mummy's paying me, why not! Hahahaha.

Many things have happened since I lasted blogged. Things between me & Kgcl have been so much better now. Really glad that we were both able to talk things out. Baby has been charged with SOL for 14 days! :( Counting down 9 days!

2 more days till our 16th month together. Will go to Maju to find him awhile. Hehe. Ever since Baby have been charged, we've been missing each other sooooo badly! But I'm glad that this chance allows us to cherish each other much more! Hehe.

Mummy got me an iPhone 4 for my birthday while Papa got me a Burberry bag! HEHE. I love them so much! HAHA. THIS POST IS SO OLD!! LOL!

Oh and Baby has been sweeter to me. HE GOES BOWLING WITH ME NOW!! HEEHEE.

2010-09-14T02:39:00.000+08:00

Until now also don't have........ Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

2010-09-13T02:17:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-09-02T17:40:00.003+08:00

24 August 2010.

Went for a workshop! Boring ttm!! Went to study @ Farrer's Mac with classmates before Daddy came to fetch me home. Went to Mummy's office first. I rode their buggy! Hehehe. Fun!! I parked it ok!! HAHA.

25 August 2010.

Brought Ah Boy home before going to study. Thank you Kgcl for bringing me there & tagging along. You know how much your presence means to me. :) Wenjie & Freddy came over after that. Went back to Jurong.

26 August 2010.

Went down Tpy to settle some matters. While in the train towards Boon Lay, I felt super nausea. Kgcl immediately alighted & bought me a drink before we cabbed back. It was so expensive because it was booked & there was a jam. :(

Went Jp for Curry chicken noodles! Happy! Haha. Went over to Quan's house afterwards. Went to Boon lay pasar for POWER nasi lemak!

Baby showered me with money!! LOL.

27 August 2010.

Went to Lim Ah Boy to buy helmet. I want the pink Spino!! :( Went Mustafa to walkwalk. Kgcl bought Gucci perfume for me & himself! :) He wanted to buy the Emporio Armani watch for me on the spot but I couldn't decide! Now too late... :(

Went back home. Kgcl wanted to go out but didn't in the end. Went Boon lay pasar with him in the end. He ordered a lot of food! Oyster egg, scrambled egg, kang kong, stingray, cockles! So cute when he's hungry!! Hehe.

Went over to find Quan they all before going to eat. Kgcl met Junming awhile. Went down Yishun Dam & something funny happened. HAHA.

28 August 2010.

Went Bbdc in the morning before Bukit merah with Kgcl, Wenjie, Shiquan, Kel & Hh. Back to Kel house. Accident downstairs!! Stupid couple!

Boys mj-ed awhile while girls watched TV. Boys went out to eat while girls mj-ed. :)

Baby bought me Bai tu nai tang! :)

29 August 2010.

Happy 13 months love. :)

My request to Baby was that I could sleep in longer. So he didn't wake me up. :) Woke up & we both prepared! Went to Jp to have Ajisen!! Finished eating & we went for a stick before getting our tickets for Grown ups! Went to the arcade awhile before going into the cinema. Baby laughed throughout the show so I'm glad it wasn't boring for Baby since I was the one that chose it!

Finished the movie but I didn't felt like sharing the day with anyone so I asked Baby if he wanted to go prawning. He invited Robin along & we went to Japanese Garden.

Finished prawning & we headed home.

Sometimes I just wish you could think of me first. I love you, I feel so blissed. I never want all these to end. Kgcl, can you hold my hand forever?

30 August 2010.

School for PAF exam. HAHAHA. SCREWED IT!! Home & snuggled beside Baby. Went for fishing afterwards @ Jurong jetty 2 with Didi & Robin. Hehe. Mummy came over to fetch us in the buggy & gave us money to fish at Japanese Garden instead. But we went prawning. Hehehehe.

Aaron left early. Prawns are very disgusting!

31 August 2010.

Bbdc. Gombak. Eat. HELLO KITTY LAMP. Fico at night. We sat the Chrysler there! :) Baby caught a Hello Kitty for me again!!

01 Sept 2010.

Baby went Bbdc but I didn't tag along as I was very tired. Didi & me went to Jp to make Mummy's cake before Baby came over to meet us. Long John Silver before going to the Hello store. Knn my SIM card still spoilt!! :@ Change alr still spoil!!

Bussed home before cabbing to Taman to get Didi & Baby new fishing rods. Japanese garden. Cabbed back to Lakeside to fish.

2010-08-23T21:52:00.002+08:00

Woke up today morning. Was chatting with Baby's Mummy for awhile & was about to go back to sleep when she suddenly called me to prepare, said she was going to do manicure since she had many sessions leftover from her package. She told me to QUICKLY prepare!

I reached Jp before 2pm when I received her call @ 1pm! RECORD TIME! The fucking cab driver pissed me off so badly. Tell him U-turn, ignore me. Tell him I got $50 note only, he kpkb. The cab fare $3.40 only he don't want to stop meter when stop, continue until $4, nvm! I no small change what! I understand la, then when he finally dig his fucking wallet out, he give me $45 dollars change! FUCKING HELL. HE LUCKY I RUSHING FOR TIME IF NOT I SURE REPORT HIM. KNN.

Reached Nail Palace & did the manicure. Talked with Baby's Mummy about many stuffs before heading over to Fairprice. I had my retribution today! Wha, she think I am F1 driver can cut sharp corners one leh! Hehehehe. Sorry Kgcl for always making you push the trolley! I understand now!! HAHA.

Celestene the F1 driver hit a corner of it's sponsor Tiger Beer & is disqualified! HAHAHA.

Went downstairs to buy a door bell. Home Fix was closed so we went Japan Home followed by another DIY store. Bought it, went to car park to load the stuffs into the car. Baby's Mummy sent me home first. She told me to bring Ah Boy home tomorrow. :)

So heng, reach home only rain heavily! :P Wen, Hh, Freddy & Kel came over to take something before they were scolded by the security guards! HAHAHA.

Today my Kgcl said he wanted me to be his future Mrs Guay. :)

But his phone is off now leh! :@

2010-08-22T07:07:00.001+08:00

21 August 2010.

Baby cooked lunch for me! Was supposed to go Bangkit to get something initially but didn't. So no Jp walkwalk for me. :( Finished eating & Baby suddenly felt like fishing! Went to Chinese Garden with Hubby & bought little fishies for baits!

Bought cigg from Chinese Garden's Cheers before training back to Lakeside. Met Aaron there & walked over the fishing spot! Fished awhile & we were not allowed to fish there so we went back to just outside the gate of Lakepoint to fish. Hehe. Aaron caught 1 fish! Baby saw his friend there.

We saw a fish with half the body bitten off! :( It was still alive & swimming though. Poor thing! :( Sorry fishie. :(

Finished fishing & asked my maid to come over to take the things up while we walked over to the coffeeshop near 347 to eat. We had curry fish head!! HEHEHEHE. Sudden craving ma.. Thank you Kgcl! :)

Walked home afterwards & lazed around before preparing. Bathed again before we went over to meet the rest @ YBIB. Congrats to Wenjie for getting his licence & bike. :) Slacked there awhile before deciding to eat Taohway.

I sat Wenjie's bike as I didn't want to sit Quan's if not they all will make fun of me! :( Later Baby really SHIO how? Hahaha. Baby sat Quan's instead. Total of 6 bikes yesterday & Wenjie's bike suddenly broke down on the expressway! It was so scary! It just suddenly stopped in the middle of the road! Luckily there wasn't any cars behind us! If not we would be gone! Pushed the bike to the side of the road & called the rest. Nobody picked up! We were saying that maybe they wouldn't really notice we were gone! Maybe they just thought we were slow! Hahaha. We were stuck quite a distance before the exit to Batok!

Kelvin called back first. They were at the famous Tao Hway shop liao! :( I was so worried for Baby too you know! Hahaha. They said they would come back to find us. We waited awhile before deciding to push it nearer to the exit so it would be easier for them! Wenjie pushed until he was tired so it was my turn & I nearly dropped his bike!! HAHA. Sorry!! So I didn't dare to push it anymore. HAHA. We saw fire burning & heard music playing. Creepy thing was there was NO CARS & nobody there.. The music was really creepy. We both just shut up & quickly walked!

Kelvin & Biao arrived first & I kept asking where was Baby! Haha. They told me Baby got takeaway Tao Hway for me & I was so happy! :)

Baby reached & he told me Shiquan's bike also stopped suddenly! So dangerous!! :( Baby not only bought me Tao Hway but bought my favourite Soya milk with grass jelly! Thank you Darling! He calls it Michael Jackson cause it's black & white! Haha. Baby said he was so worried for me & gave me a big hug. :)

He said he was worried when he couldn't see us behind him but thought we were just slow since Wenjie just had his bike. But he panicked when he reached there & couldn't find me! Hehe.

Biao, Kel & Freddy tried to push start the bike but failed! We saw a "Bikebulance" pass by & thanks to Hh's eyes, he rmb-ed the number! Haha. The Bikebulance saved the bike & us! Baby, Wj, Xp & me sat the Bikebulance to Jurong Port to put the bike there!

Walked out to Caltex & there were many dogs! Baby was very protective of me! :) Went to peepee. I went to the boys' toilet to wash my hands! HAHAHA.

Kel drove us home. :) Baby gave me lights off time at 0430h!

"You know I very scared when I reach liao cannot see you?"

Bi, this sentence made me fall in love with you again. I love you, a lot.

22 August 2010.

Woke up at 7pm! Watched YOG. Why their stamina so good? :( Woke Baby up @ 8pm & ordered Mac. Went back to sleep after using com & watching TV awhile.

Kglc. Always.

Post edit: I mean KGCL!! HAHAHAHA.

2010-08-20T22:43:00.000+08:00

14 August 2010.

Baby booked out in the morning. I didn't fetch him because he told me to go sleep!! HAHA. Slept till the evening before we went to 8head for 7month's dinner. Finished dinner, went to... I FORGOT! HAHAHAHA.

15 August 2010.

I only remember-ed I woke up late! HAHAHAHAHAHA. Took Ah Boy home!! Mahjong-ed! :)

16 August 2010.

School-ed! Baby brought me to school. Hehe. We bought many makan makan back & Baby helped fix the rack for laundry! :) I forgot what we did after that. Hehehehehe.

17 August 2010.

Baby is in camp! :( I had my presentation & I was very angry with a fucking fat asshole. I seriously very dulan! :@ First presentation in my whole life & he made me so angry! :@ No wonder he got no friends! SHIT.

18 August 2010.

Baby booked out at night & Mao came over to accompany me. Hehehe helped her make up & talk cocked with her. Daddy fetched Baby, Di, Mao & me to Taman to buy doggie food & fetched Mao back to 303. Hehe.

19 August 2010.

Baby have been sending me to school every time he's at home. So sweet of him. :) But I forgot what I did on 19. Hehehehe. Went to Queensway SC to eat during break time with Hubby. Arcade awhile & went back to school. Ended school late. Saw Brother @ Mrt. Baby waited for me for 7 hours!! SWEET LITTLE BOY. HAHAHAHA.

20 August 2010.

SEE HIS FUCK FACE IN THE 2ND PIC. LOL!!!

I didn't want to go to school initially as it was raining heavily. I kept talking cock with Hubby saying I had cramps & blah blah blah but he insisted that I go to school! Hehe so bad. So he offered to send me to school. :P While doing my hair, Baby made me a sandwich. Hehe. Fried eggs with onions! MMM! Favourite! Hehehe. Thank you my sweetest boy. :)

He wanted to go home immediately after school as his phone was low on battery already! But I just wanted to walk around so we went to Jp to have curry chicken noodles! Stupid Baby had rice instead & taunted me. :( Finished eating & we went to the arcade. Baby bought me soya milk with grass jelly & it was extra sweet! :)

Walked around in search for camera's screen protector. Went back to Ong's shop before heading home. Slept till @ night & went to Quan's house for Mj. Caught Step Up 3d @ Jp afterwards! It was very nice! Hehehehe.

2010-08-13T00:02:00.002+08:00

12 August 2010.

School as usual & Baby Guay came to find me during his nights out. Gave him the stupid bag. Finally he thanked me!! :@ Hehe.

13 August 2010.

Schooled till 1pm & Ah Mao came to my class. Hehe. Ended at 315pm & called Daddy as I wanted him to fetch me. As my phone was low on battery, I used Mao's phone. Daddy thought I was Meimei so he said he was waiting for Jiejie. Then when I said I was Jiejie he scolded me an idiot! :@

Went to fetch Didi & Meimei before Daddy drove me & Mao to Timah. PHONE DIED! Sang alr & Wen & co. came to meet us. Saw Ah Da mei. Hehehehe. Finished slacking at Timah & went to pack food for Baby. Packed 2 Roti Johns & one Beehoon Goreng & 61-ed to Maju with Mao.

Reached there & saw Bi with his 2 friends. One of them is a WONderer. Baby pinched my face through the fence & although it was painful I think it was quite sweet of him. HEHE. Pei-ed him awhile before going back.

Mao 154-ed with me till Clementi while I went all the way to YCSS' bus stop. Thank you my baby Mao for accompanying me. Hehe. I promise next week pei you alone!! Luckily I had my book to read! HEHE. Reached home & I want to orh orh liao. Pictures tmr!!

2010-08-10T19:33:00.000+08:00

Schooled then Papa came to fetch me. I WAS SO TIRED IN SCHOOL!! Daddy brought me to Jp to walk. Saw Shiquan & Hh there. Went home to change & fetch Mei last minute as she wanted to go Bugis.

Had chicken rice. Hehe. Papa gave me hundred to go shopping & Mei fifty. Daddy went off first while Mei & I walked to Bugis Street. Spent all my money there. But Mei tiap me 50$! HEHEHE. Bought 2 rompers, 2 top, 1 bag for Baby (HE HAVEN THANK ME!!), 1 pair or shorts, 2 pairs of leggings. 1 pair of high waist, 1 bag (For Meimei) and I FORGOT TO BUY SHOES!

Trained back home & slept early. So tired! :)

Baby didn't SMS me much today. :( I miss Baby so much! Fetching Baby on Saturday morning. I CAN WAKE UP!

To the person who is searching "Kerbe blog" on google, who the fuck are you?

Please.

2010-08-09T23:23:00.001+08:00

Woke up today & Baby kept disturbing me! Hehe. Prepared & cabbed to Jp to have our dinner. Wanted Ajisen at first but decided to go to Thai Express instead. I had pineapple rice while Baby ordered Crayfish Red Glass, Fire Noodle, Stuffed Chicken Wing with Limeade and Chiangmai Mango blend! His noodle was super spicy! Mine was delicious! Hehe. We didn't finish the Tom Yan because it was too big of a serving! Hehe.

Baby & me tried to estimate the sum of the meal. Came up to $61! I WON! Because I guess $60 while he guessed $51! Hehehe. Idiot Baby. Walked around & he smoke a lot!! Walk walk walk walk & see bag, ARCADE! before we went to the bus interchange. After that Baby sudden craving for Shih Lin so we went back to get it! Hehe. He bought me Soya Bean to drink! While walking back to 154, I told him to wait while I threw my drink away. I wanted to throw my drink quietly so he wouldn't know that I didn't finish it but the drink hit the side of the bin & he scolded me! Hehehe.

I sat in the bus while he stood as I was alighting earlier than he was!! Baby gave me a kiss before I alighted while he bus-ed back to Maju. :)

I love my naughty boy!!!!!!! Please let this last forever. Please. I will do anything for it!!!!

Baby apologised for not bringing me to see fireworks but it makes me so happy knowing that he remembered what I like. Hehe. Last year of today's, we quarreled badly over fireworks! So 9 of August will always be memorable. HEHEHEHE! FIRST FLOWERS!!

Kerbe, forever.

2010-08-09T23:22:00.010+08:00

Sorry for not updating for so long!! NOW START!

02 August 2010.

Went school & bought a bracelet! Hehe headed to IMM with Daddy after school. Had Ichiban Sushi before he gave me money to walk around. Hehe. Papa bought me new concealer. Hehe thankyou Papa. Home!! So tired!!

03 August 2010.

Hubby wanted to fetch me to school but he was too tired! Hehe. But he made me so happy with little things he said! Went Timah for dinner with family at Wishbone while Hubby booked out. Met Dear at home. :)

04 August 2010.

Dear sent me to school but we quarreled. Cleared things up with Baby. Babyboy, sorry for making you unhappy. I wiill NEVER make you upset & sorry for what I did in the evening. I love you Baby. Baby went prawning with his friends while I slept. :)

05 August 2010.

Went to school............. I can't remember!! Hubby was with me though. Hehe.

06 August 2010.

School till 1515h. :( Went to IMM with Papa again. HAD AJISEN!! Hehehehe. Papa gave me money to walk around again before sending me to Timah to meet Wen. Hehe. Met Wen at her house, saw Daffy too. Went over to Timah & pei-ed her eat before going down to sing K.

Took pictures. Hehe thankew Wenwen for not going to school for me! LOL. Cabbed to meet Baby at Jp around 10pm. Went home together. :)

Baby suddenly sot want to bring me go Jp's Fairprice in the middle of the night so we cabbed over again. Hehe. Bought Sushi & Baby cooked for me! :) SO HAPPY! I FOUND TRONKY!!!

07 August 2010.

Woke up & quickly prepared. Met Biao & Baby's friend at Jurong Safra. Jackpot-ed awhile before playing pool. Baby gave me money to spend!! Hehehe. Went to Jp to withdraw money & toilet before I cabbed over to Timah to meet Wen while Baby caught a movie with Biao.

Met Steph, Wen & Minmin & went to have Mac. I didn't eat because I didn't have any appetite! Went down to sing afterwards & Joanne joined us. :) I felt like peeing throughout the whole session but I held it in! LOL.

Min & Joanne left early & we sang till 1am. Waited for Baby's call before I cabbed home. As I was from Timah & he was just at Jp with Biao sending him back, I thought he would be faster than me so I went upstairs but the door was lock! Baby had the key! So I called him & he told me he was downstairs already so I quickly took the lift down to go up with him again. HEHEHEHE.

Baby cooked my favourite broccoli for me!! :) Thank you my sweetest Boyfriend.

08 August 2010.

Baby & me went to Biao's house to jail break his iPhone. Thank you Biao's brother Kun Poh for helping Baby. Hehe. Mj-ed & Baby kept scolding me!! :@ Only those that played with us before will understand! LOL.

Kun Biao's Mummy very cute! LOL. & She keep asking me to eat eat eat! HAHAHA. But she's very cute!! Baby finally finished playing with his iPhone before we went to the coffeeshop downstairs to eat. He ate & ordered Soya bean for me but I didn't drink so I brought it home. Hehe. Slept before Baby while reading my book as I was really tired! :P

#2.

2010-08-01T02:21:00.017+08:00

Woke up at 2pm today. Hehe. So happy that I get to sleep in today! Hehe. Went to prepare & ate at home before going to Boon Lay with Baby, Matt & Didi. Bought Slurpee at 7-11 before going to the park opposite Jp to fly our kite!!!

WE VERY PROFESSIONAL. IS OUR KITE NOT GOOD ENOUGH ONLY. Hehe.

It's the first time I flew a kite with Baby. I feel so happy. HEHEHE. Finished flying the kites & we went to Jp to walk. Hehe bought Mango yoghurt juice. Hehe. Separated ways with Didi & Matt before going to Food Junction with Hubby. Hubby ordered Fried Kway Teow & we shared a plate! Hehe. So sweet of him. Went to meet his friends outside 7-11. Went over to Shiquan's void deck to wait for the rest to reach.

Drove to Seletar & had hot wings. Ordered Level 3, 6 & 30. Hehe. Everybody keep say very on very on in the end all want to die!! HAHAHAHA. Baby vomited, Shiquan sweated like crazy. Wenjie forehead very hot!! Freddy & Roy gastritis! Finished eating but we couldn't leave as Roy was feeling unwell so Baby rode his bike to Jln Kayu for him. Had durians, jackfruits & prata before we drove back.

Baby today APK sia.

#1.

2010-07-31T02:57:00.003+08:00

Woke up today & hugged Baby goodbye. Papa sent me to school. Hehe I wore the same with Jo. So coincident! Hehe. It was raining really heavily today morning. Thank you to the security uncle who sheltered me. :)

PAF today was boring. Had a hard time waking Baby up too!! Hehe. Ended school & went to the bus stop but I didn't know what bus to take to Queenstown. So I took a cab & met my handicap boy there. Hehehehe. We trained to Boon Lay to have curry chicken noodle before having a stick. Went to the arcade!

Baby even brought a jacket along for me. PLUS CHOCOLATE!!

Baby caught 2 soft toys for me! Hehehe. Thank you Dear. :) He caught a small keychain Hello Kitty for me too today! Hehe. Called Daddy & waited for Daddy to fetch us to Bugis. Went to pray with Daddy first before heading to Bugis street with Hubby. Thankew for giving me money Papa. Hehe.

Baby was very supportive today because he gave me opinions!! Hehe. I love him so much! Hehe. I love Baby today because he didn't have a bad attitude & he was very patient with me! Hehe. Bought a pair of flip flops. Hehe. The aim of my trip today was to buy a pair of shorts but I bought eyelashes glue costing $30. :'( Bought a HELLO KITTY top & a romper today. HEHE. Baby help me dong the ball ball thing Hello Kitty pouch again. HEHE. Shiokah!

Walked to Junction & BABY FOUND $100! LOL. Caught 2 toys for me again! Hehe. Walked around before we had Yoshinoya. Baby & me were pestered by some bridal photoshoot promoter. :@ They were very irritating!!

Trained back to Boon Lay to bus to Quan's house. Went to Kel's house after that before heading to Robin's place then went 651 to eat. THEN HOME. GOODNIGHT.

I can feel Baby loving me more & more. :)

Happy 1 year anniversary!!

2010-07-29T19:15:00.000+08:00

HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY, BABY GUAY!!!

I've wrote everything I've wanted to say in the card, I hope you like it. I love you Baby. We've been through so much, I know we can last forever. No matter how long forever is, I will love you my best.

Counted down & I actually cried after reading messages not only from Baby but my friends/cousin. I feel so touched to know that they actually care about me. Baby has really made an effort to send it to me on time. Thank you Darling. He even suddenly took 3 light sticks out while counting down in the dark. So sweet!!

Felt so tired after crying but there were happy tears! Fell asleep first before Hubby. Hehe. Woke up in the morning but Baby didn't send me to school as he was very tired. He fetched me after school.

Baby met me outside school & we bused to Queensway. Ate Laksa before Baby headed to the arcade. He caught 2 small cute toys for me. Hehe. He sprained his wrist there too!! Trained down to Vivo & collected the tickets he booked online earlier. Walked around & we went to Daiso. Baby bought a kite while I bought 2 pairs of eyelashes & an eyebrow pencil. We went to the arcade afterwards. Baby wasted around $50 there. Hate it when Baby never control his money!! :@

Went to catch the Sorcerer's Apprentice at 2pm. I bought a jumbo hotdog & squeezed many mustard on it!! Hehehe. Finished the movie we went for a stick before walking around Vivo. Bought a dress! Went to Toy R Us to dong the ball ball. Hehe I feel so sinful because I dong 5 of them! But the Hello Kittys are worth it!! HEHE.

Walked around & decided there were nothing much more so we went back to Lakeside. I fell asleep immediately. Hehe while Baby went to see the doctor because his wrist was swollen. HAHAHAHA.

Baby came back & went to camp to show his officer his injured wrist!! Hehehehe. He came home & slept beside me. Sorry Darling for not accompanying you throughout this anniversary. I was really tired. :(

But I love you, & lastly, HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY.

2010-07-28T22:33:00.002+08:00

I woke up early, as you can see in my previous post! Hehehe.

Daddy fetched me to school & I met Jacq & her friends @ Queenstown Mrt. Shuttle bused over. Reached class & met the girls. :) There were 9 people in class only! HAHA. We had PAF today. Mr Wilson talks funnily. When he said Unpaid Expenses, I heard Armpit Expands. :(

Ended school & I bused home myself. Reached JE & bought a story book plus 4 notebooks & a pen! I bought craft paper too! Cabbed home & did my 1 year present.

Baby called & met me @ Jp with Matt & Jun. Had dinner @ Kopitiam.

Bused home after Jun went up his bus back to camp. Reached Lakepoint & I was feeling giddy so Hubby carried me back. LOL. Pictures soon! ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!

COUNTING DOWN 40 MINUTES!!! MWARKS!

2010-07-28T04:14:00.002+08:00

It's 4:21am now, I just woke up!

Yesterday was the first official day of my school. I woke up late!! :@ My alarm was supposed to wake me up at 6am but it didn't ring. So I woke up at 710am & went to prepare. Quickly prepared but couldn't find something to wear so I asked Bi to find my black dress for me. He couldn't find it so I just wore a long basic tank top with my Adidas jacket. :( Daddy drove me to Queenstown to meet Jacqueline.

Met Jacqueline Dear & her friend. :) Hehehehe. Jacq brought me to my class. I walked past my class & bio first, the class like empty. I saw the girl that looks like Ah Tan though. Hehehe.

Went in & sat. So paiseh, but I thought I was early because there were very little people. Turns out I was the last to come in! My class has 12 people only!! My lecturer is called Nancy Marshall. She kept saying there were 16 people. Siao bo. She see 4 extra!!

There are 4 girls & 8 boys in my class. I am the youngest. HEHEHEHE. There is one very nice girl called Aisyah who introduced me a part time job! Baby doesn't allow me to go though. He told me to concentrate on studying. Hehe. We learnt about communications today. I borrow pen & paper from a girl called Joan! She's very nice. I thought she was 18! Hehe.

When Nancy Marshall said, "Ok, that's all for today!", Baby immediately texted me telling me he was outside. So accurate! Hehe. Met Baby outside & we walked to the bus stop. BABY MADE ME WALK FURTHER HOR. HAHA.

Had Laksa @ Queensway! Yummy! Thankew Baobei! Hehe. Walked around & bought a belt. Luckily Baby reminded me. He's so sweet these 2 days. I don't know how would I cope with the stress if it's not for him. Thank you Darling. You even know what I'm talking about when I'm just looking at you. Hehe!

Trained home & I kept disturbing Hubby about his head! I kept saying his head was very big. LOL. When we reached Lakeside, I asked if he could hold my bag for me but he told me not to make it a HA BIT! I heard him saying HEAD BIG. LOL!

HUH? DON'T MAKE MY HEAD BIG?

LOL LOL LOL he very angry with me. LOL!!!! We raced home so as the choose the smaller head between the both of us! HE PUSH ME OUTSIDE THE DOOR THEN I LOSE!! NB.

Hehehe. Reached home & bathed before having a nap. Baby went back to JGL to pass them the pass before coming home to have a nap. He left for camp around 740pm. Sian!

I slept until now & he wrote on my wall calling me a pig.

SCHOOL TOMORROW. IT'S 506am NOW. SHOULD I SLEEP?

2010-07-26T22:01:00.003+08:00

Who say my face kaopei can go die already.

Today was the first of school. FUCKING BAD DAY.

I woke up to Baby throwing his temper because I lazed in bed before preparing to school. I wanted to wear something else but Baby said that he would prefer for me to wear my other dress instead. So I wore it. Baby was so dear he gave me a piece of curry bun to eat.

Daddy drove us to Queenstown Mrt. Then I realised my shirt was fucking dirty. -.- Couldn't clean it away so I was super lucky that I could still tuck in my shirt as I was wearing pants underneath. Thank you Baby for worrying for me so I had pants!

We didn't take the shuttle bus as Baby wanted to walk over there since it was the first time. Reached the campus & I nearly cried. It was fucking horrible. I don't like it. Accompanied him to the Polyclinic before walking back to school myself. I was upset that I was alone. :(

Reached the hall & queued for registration. It was fucking horrible again. All of them were foreigners.. :( A few sweet people talked to me. The hall was fucking cold & the talks were fucking boring. Luckily I had people to sms with. Thank you to my Dearest Bb Ah Tan, Yaxin, Cym & Hubby for being there & wishing me luck.

Ended & met Bi outside the school. Walked to a coffee shop nearby to have Laksa. Trained to Boon Lay. Walked around in search for a belt but I didn't like any. :( Baby, thank you for making an effort to shop with me today. Really. Thank you.

Smoked with Yijing while waiting for Robin before the 3 of us bused to Arena for a pool session. I bought salmon over. I was bored but thanks to Baby's iPhone I got entertained awhile. Finished the pool session & we headed to BK to eat. The drink tasted like soap. Fuck Arena's BK. Don't ever eat there!!! :@

Wanted to go peepee but they frightened me & I didn't go peepee. Bought orange juice as I was very thirsty because of BK's drink!!! :@ Bused back to Boon Lay before training home. Mummy made me very angry. :@

I threw a temper & I thought Baby was going to scold me but he cheered me up instead. That made me very happy. While walking back he tried to walk in the same speed & whenever I put my left foot out, he did the same. He made me laugh but singing some army song. Thank you Dear.

He wants to go slack slack without me. You not beside me how I sleep peacefully? Sian 1/2.

I HAD SUCH A BAD DAY.

FUCK MY LIFE.

I DON'T WANT TO GO SCHOOL.

I FEEL SO LONELY.

I feel like crying. :(

yah, why do i pretend?

2010-07-25T04:25:00.005+08:00

Just got home! Baby is playing with his fishing game now. Sibeh irritating! :@

Baby accompanied Daddy & me to buy paint yesterday. My room is blue now. :( But since Baby helped me to paint it, I'm very happy! Hehe. Had a nap in Aaron's room after painting my room yesterday. Thank you Baby for tucking me in like a little girl! Hehe. Hubby woke me up to go back to my room to sleep before preparing my dinner late at night for me. Hehe. Mummy was jealous of my dinner!! Played Wii awhile before heading to bed. :)

Today.

Dear woke up coughing very badly. :( Headed to Taman to eat before consulting the doctor. Baby coughed very badly & he made a funny noise while coughing, like shouting so we laughed like mad. HAHAHAHA. Baby caught a cute teddy bear for me before buying me blueberry syrup water. Hehehe. Plus Tau suan & TNP & straws for Didi & I DON'T KNOW~

Walked back & cut through the park. Thankew Darling for accompanying me for walks. Hehehe. Went home & prepared before we brought Matt & Didi out to bowl. 30-ed over & Baby was still playing his bloody fishing games so that pissed me off. Had 3 games! :)

I AM WINNER HOR!!

Was supposed to meet the rest but didn't so Didi & Matt went to eat & bused back first before we did. Dear cooked dinner for me. It was very nice. Baby's friend Junming called & asked us out so we went to prepare & meet him downstairs.

Slacked awhile downstairs before heading to Jp to have a drink before he sent us home. Thankew Junming! :)

0459am now. KURBE GUAY STILL PLAYING GAME. DULAN.

Anniversary.

2010-07-23T03:48:00.001+08:00

Hubby is sleeping like a pig beside me now! :@ He has been sleeping the WHOLE day! It's 5:15am now!! Baby & me quarreled the day before & he came home as he was feeling unwell. He slept while I couldn't sleep! He went back camp to see the MO in the morning before coming home. Hubby bought Lemon Barley for me. Hehehe.

Baby cooked the prawns for me & it was DELICIOUS!!!! Hehehe went to sleep as I didn't sleep the night before & was going crazy. Hehehe!

SLEEP UNTIL NOW LOR DOWAN WAKE UP!!

Just had McDonalds with Matt. Hehehe.

2010-07-20T03:29:00.000+08:00

2010-07-19T02:38:00.005+08:00

HUBBY GUAY,

Hehe I want you to know that I love you! You're sleeping soundly right now yet I can't get to sleep again! Hehe. Dear, we've not been quarreling so much already. Although the both of us throw little tantrums sometimes, I know that it's because we want each other's attention! Hehe.

Everytime I throw stupid tantrums at you, all I want is for you to sayang me & tell me that it's okay! Hehe, Dear, I know that you love me, really.

Sorry I'm so demanding. Everything you give me, I ask for more. Dear, sorry! :P

You silly boy, I know that even when you're cold, you let me have the blanket. Even when you're sick, you insist in taking care of me. Even when you're broke, you spend your last cent on me. Even when you're tired, you try to pat me to sleep. Even when you're freezing in the cold, you let me rest my cold feet on you, instantly warming me up. Thank you for trying to placate me at times too.

I like long bus rides with you because I get to lie on your shoulder. I like long walks with you because I get to hold your hands. I like to go out shopping with you because we get our different opinions. I like to eat with you because you always know my preferences. Hehe.

Sometimes I look back at our old conversations, I look back & I smile but I feel my heart wrenching.

Can you type like this to me again?! HEHEHE! I miss you so much.

OK ABRUPT END OF POST.

CHUNLENG BAOBAO WOAINI!

Prawning.

2010-07-18T16:28:00.007+08:00

Woke up & prepared before heading to JP for lunch! Curry chicken noodle! Hehe. Thankew Hubby!

Went for a stick after eating for heading to find Ong before having another stick again. Actually Kerbe Guay is a gossip king! HAHA. Accompanied Ong awhile before cabbing to Gek Poh.

Reached Gek Poh & headed to the Arcade before going to the carpark to slack. We were sitting beside the slope when we saw someone leaning on Hh's bike smoking. So funny! The person didn't know that the owner was looking at him! HAHA.

Wenjie came to fetch me & Baby to Quan's house & they had a mahjong session.

Finished Mj then Matthew came. We slacked downstairs before Wenjie sent Baby, Matt & me to fetch Robin before to Japanese Gardens. Reached there & THERE WERE A LOT OF PEOPLE! :@

Saw Yvonne & her boyfriend there. So went to ask if she had prawns! Haha. Waited awhile before prawning. We started around 3am. Saw Raymond & Evon there. Hehe.

Bi's friend Jun Ming came & he started prawning too! Hehe Baby caught most prawns & the biggest ones!! Finished prawning at 6am & Bi's friend drove us to S11 for supper/breakfast.

I had noodle while they all had pratas! Hehe thankew Hubby again!! He sent us home after that!

:( Deleted.....

2010-07-16T23:50:00.006+08:00

I slept for a total of 16 hours last night!!! Hehehehe. Heppy. Finally I sleep at night! But I still wake up in the evening. :(

Woke up & prepared. Mrt-ed to Clementi with Matthew & waited for Bi there. Bi came & we ate Mos Burger. :) Took a few pictures there. Hehe. Trained home while Matt went to meet his friends.

Bi's playing BeJeweled now & he is snapping at me!!! :@

Finally it's the weekend!! Finally I get to spend time with him! Hehehehehe.

/Post edit.

It's going to be 5am now & I cant get to sleep. :( Baby's sleeping soundly though. Sian! I slept at 2 but woke up due to a nightmare!! Thankew Hubby for hugging me to sleep. Hehe.

Hubby, don't make the same mistake again! I won't listen to explanations liao! But I still love you! Hehe!

Love of my life.

2010-07-15T22:56:00.001+08:00

Boked appointment at 830am in the morning for 1230pm in the afternoon. Prepared & went for my hair appointment. Dyed my hair. Hehe. Matthew & Ah Tan came & cut their hair.

Went home & prepared with Tan. She is a crazy girl. Hehe. Managed to SMS my Baby a lot in the morning but he was busy in the afternoon. :( Prepared & waited for Mummy outside the Minimart as we went to grab a bite first.

Went to Chevrons to fetch Matthew & Aaron but they were no where to be found. What made it worse was that they both refused to pick up calls. :@ Was so angry!! Found them in the arcade! :@ Daddy drove us to Forum.

Reached Forum & realised that my favourite Yotei Restaurant was closing down tomorrow. :( Luckily I insisted on Yotei today. Had my fill of Hana Maki! Hehe.

Saw a lot of Mediacorp artistes there having their meals. Hehehehe. So swaku but Chen Li Ping was very friendly.

Watsons for nail polish before going home to sign the documents for MDIS. Tantan helped me paint my nails. Hehe. Thankew you ar! Hehehe.

Baby called me to talk for awhile. I am going to sleep soon. I FINALLY CAN SLEEP EARLY!!!

I love you Dearest. Don't always eat cup noodles hor! Not good for your health! I love you Sweety. Hehe. I'll be seeing you tomorrow!!! Saturday double date! HEHEHEHE.

Photos tomolo~

Murcielago?

2010-07-13T22:20:00.003+08:00

Slept in the morning as I wanted to wait for Bi to sleep first. I hate it when he gives me an attitude or shout at me! :@ Went to sleep & got disturbed by Matthew early in the afternoon!!

Matt came over & woke me up asking me to bring him to Jurong Point to fix his camera. Woke up, prepared & bussed over. I miss Baby so much. :(

Bought a pair of shorts & found out where to repair his DSLR before buying his jeans. Bussed home. Didn't take pictures today as I forgot to bring my camera! :@

Going MDIS' HQ to make payments tomorrow.

CELESTENE 3 MORE DAYS! RELAX!

I miss Hubby Guay so much neh!!!

:@

2010-07-12T19:31:00.010+08:00

Woke up and ate at home before going to Gek Poh to cut Baby's hair. Hehe handsome boy liaoz. Walked over to Gek Poh & wanted to go Singapore Pools but the queue was SO LONG! So we bussed back to Jurong Point and collected our tickets for Despicable Me! HAHAHA.

Hubby wasted $30 in the arcade for me! Hehe silly boy. You don't have to do so much things. I know that you love me. Really. :) Walked around and looked at soft toys before going to the theatre to catch our show. The movie was super nice. Hehehehe.

It is Baby's favourite show!! HAHA.

Finished the show and Baby went to takeaway food for me. Curry chicken noodle! Hehe. Bussed to Quan's house and waited for them to reach. Baby ate downstairs while I waited for them to play mahjong while I ate.

World cup! Haha. Spain fucker!! Was very angry with Baby last night as he didn't really care about me at all. :@

Cabbed to Japanese Gardens to go prawning with Hubby and Robin. They both bought an hour only. Hehe. Hubby catch so fast! He even released 3 prawns because they were pregnant. Hehe. Thank you Hubby!! :)

Bussed back to Lakeside and walked home. Was very angry in the bus too. :@ Reached home around 7am.

Baby hugged me to sleep. :) I love you. But I want to be your only priority!! Hehehehe.

Baby even counted down and told me 17 more days. Hehehehe.

Woke up today and Baby was late for camp! Hubby quickly rushed to camp. I hope his elbow is better now.

Boy. I'm so smitten with you. I don't care what others say, I'll stick with you no matter what. Baby, promise me that you'll love me too. Tell me why I love you so much. You're really the sweetest boy.

I LOVE KURBE LA! LOL.

2010-07-10T20:10:00.000+08:00

Prepared & Daddy fetched me to City Vibes to fetch Hubby. Bought bread and walked behind City Vibes to walk. Hehe bought a blue lighter for Dear. Bought prepaid card for Matt. Walked back to the car park & Daddy waited in the car while I walked back & waited for Baby in City Vibes. Hehe.

Daddy fetched us home & Baby bathed cause he VERY SMELLY!!

Went downstairs to wait for them to reach before heading over to the swimming pool. Kelvin & Haihui were the bravest! HAHA. They jumped into the swimming pool first. Followed by Quan, Wenjie & Freddy. Hahaha. Last was Robin!

Kel drove Quan, Vivian, Jianfu, Baby & me over to Timah while the others went by either lorry or bikes. We were stopped by the traffic police as Shiquan was "airing" his shirt outside the car since it was wet. HAHA. Kelvin so scared!

Reached Timah & all couldn't decide what they want again so went back! :@ Saw Zijing & Ah Glenn on the way back.

Baby cooked mee goreng for me!! Hehehe wonderful!! But I didn't finish it as it was too much & he scolded me!! :@ Beat your backside!!

Went to sleeeep! Haha. I love Baby so much!!!!!! WHY!!!

LOL LOL LOL.

2010-07-10T01:37:00.001+08:00

IMAGINE I DID THIS TO KERBE. LOL!!

Hehe mute the music player. :)

HAPPIEST!!!!

2010-07-09T02:02:00.002+08:00

I'M THE HAPPIEST GIRL EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HOW.

2010-07-07T22:12:00.005+08:00

I slept around 9am in the morning because I waited for Baby to sleep first! Hehe. Baby is treating me so sweetly now! SO HEPPY!! I recorded my voice saying Goodnight Hubby send to Baby. HAHA.

And Papa bought me breakfast today morning. Thank you Daddy. Hehehe. I love you Papa!

I dunno what to blog about!! I never go out again! I have no life without Baby Guay. Lol. I wonder if I never pei Baby Guay will he be like me, stay at home or go out everyday! HAHAHA. I need to dye my hair by the the end of this month. What colour should I dye it?

HELP.

Herbe "hair" grow out already! Hehehehe. Hubby Guay having deployment today. I'm so bored!

BABY GOT BUNNY TEETH!!!!!!!

Braces for me? Yes? No? Help!

2010-07-06T21:45:00.002+08:00

THIS LITTLE WHITE GUY IS HERBE!!

Herbe means grass in French!

The 2 dots are not dirty spots! THEY ARE MOLES!!

Kerbe Guay has 2 moles at the same spot too!!!

My Kerbe Guay booked in already!! His deployment starts today! He's at Jurong Island so I'm happier because Jurong Island is nearer to me! Hehehe.

We didn't planned to sleep last night as Baby was supposed to wake up at 730am to prepare to go back to camp. I slept in the end while Baby didn't. Silly boy, he woke me up to kiss me and hug me goodbye while helping me wear the eye mask as it was very bright. Baby then tucked me in tightly. I feel so blissful. Hehehe.

Slept all the way till the sky turned dark and Baby called me. It's been so long since we both chatted so sweetly on the phone. Hehehehe! I can't wait to see Baby this Saturday!

I seriously feel like the luckiest & happiest girl. I hope this will last forever. :) HOR 老公!!!

ITALY!!!!!

2010-07-05T22:35:00.005+08:00

MY FUTURE CAR!

JUST GOT HOME!

Woke up at 7pm, harvest Baby's WE RULE crops and went to prepare. We both wore out Italy shirt out. Hehe. Bused to Jp and ate at Kopitiam. Wanted Curry Chicken Noodle, but don't have! Wanted Curry Vegetable, don't have! Wanted Prawn Mee, don't have!! So I had Wanton Mee. Hubby had some Korean food thingy.

Ordered Coke for Hubby and we went outside for Hubby to smoke before going to Cheers to buy Lemon Barley! :)

While walking in, had a good laugh with Hubby. Bused home and while walking in the gate, the security uncle laughed at us saying Italy went back home already! HAHA.

I wore Mummy's watch today. HAHA.

Hmm.

2010-07-04T23:39:00.008+08:00

Saw Nainai when I got home yesterday. :)

Woke up at 1pm by Mummy's call then went back to sleep until 2pm plus because Baby woke me up. Prepared and all of us including Ah Ma went to CWP to find Cym. Saw Junhao at there. :) Thanks for coming down brother. Hehe.

Went to Mei's booth and picked out one plant thingy and drew a face and 2 moles on it! Haha. Walked around CWP and wanted to eat at the food court but remembered suddenly that Baby's parents owned a stall there! HAHA. Ah Ma gave me the keychain of her Coach bag. HAHA. Thank you Ah ma!!

Went shopping with Mummy. She bought me 2 tops for me and 2 tops for herself. Hehe, thank you Mummy!! I changed into the new top immediately. Haha.

Baby & me left around 6pm to train to Novena. Reached there and he kept wanting to smoke so when he finally smoked he was so heppy! HAHA. Took his MC, saw MY BAOBEI TANTAN & trained back. I am very unheppy! :@

Reached Lakeside & bought Mee Goreng home. Baby did me a great favour! HAHA. Am watching TV with him now. :)

"Think before you talk."

That was what you used to say to me. Apply it back.

Hubby Guay!

2010-07-03T23:16:00.001+08:00

Woke up today by my favourite song. :) Prepared before Baby and woke Baby up when I was done. Trained to Novena & went TTSH's walk in. It was closed till 7pm so we ate first before consulting the doctor.

Finish consulting the doctor & we trained to Boon Lay and bused to Kelvin's house. Waited for Robin and we sent Shiquan back first before we fetched Yijing. Went back to Shiquan's void deck to slack before going to Wenjie's house there to slack before going to Teck Whye to fetch his friend.

Went to Kallang to eat. Once we reached there, many memories came back as Baby and his friends brought me there once when we just started. :)

BABY LOSE ME SCISSORS PAPER STONE TODAY. HAHAHA.

celestene sore loser.

No. Ate and they asked me to take a photo of their bikes. Sent Zhiyang back before Robin sent Baby & me home. :)

Knight & Day.

2010-07-03T01:38:00.005+08:00

You buy things and you keep them clean. You take care of them. Keep them in a special pocket. Away from keys and coins. Away from other things that should be kept clean and taken care of as well. Then they get scratched. And scratched again. And again. And again. And again. Soon, you don't care about them anymore. You don't keep them in a special pocket. You throw them in the bag with everything else. They've surpassed their form and become nothing but function. People are like that. You meet them and keep them clean. In a special pocket. And then you start to scratch them. Not on purpose. Sometimes you just drop them by accident or forget which pocket they're in. But after the first scratch, it's all downhill from there. You see past their form. They become function. They are a purpose. Only their essence remains.

____

I was dreaming today morning that my chest was in so much pain that I was covered in sweat. Woke up and realised that it was really painful! Went to prepare and text-ed Baby. But he was still sleeping!! Sms-ed Leilani before bathing. Finished bathing and quickly prepared before Papa fetch Mei to Westmall while he fetched me to City Vibes. I was alone for very long because Leilani took her own sweet time!

Baby sms-ed me asking me where was I and I saw him walking downstairs searching for someone!! Hehe silly boy! Met Nini with her boyfriend then we trained to Boon Lay. Went to the watch shop first before having Burger King for our dinner.

Baby is a dog very dog super ultra dog ( celestene ) hahahahahahah !!!!

Kerbe the Asshole wrote that. They smoked before we booked tickets for Knight & Day. Slacked at the arcade before smoking again and we caught the movie. Finished the movie and smoked before Nini went back with Xiao Hu while Baby and me cabbed home.

Watching TV with Bi now.

Kurbe, I wrote this for you.

2010-07-01T21:59:00.006+08:00

Because you look, but you do not see.

Because you eat, but you do not taste.

Because you sniff, but you do not smell.

Because you listen, but you do not hear.

Because you touch, but you do not feel.

Because you live, but you do not love.

You see the both of us together as a candle, I see us together as the Sun. You were a dream. Then a reality. Don't be just a memory. And if I blink my eyes enough, maybe I will wake up and you will still be there sleeping next to me.

If you blur your eyes, the streetlights become hundreds of ghosts going home. In my dreams, we fight for us. The nightmare I just had, don't make it come true. All I want is to sleep peacefully. Take the pillows, take the mattresses. Take the sheets because Baby, we're going to build a fort. Just big enough for me and you.

And as we touch, I can never tell if you are touching me or I am touching you.

I locked myself at home, I slept the day away, all for a simple reason. You're not here with me. Without you here, this space is empty. With you here, the world is too small.

If I catch your eyes looking at me tomorrow, I'm going to fall in love again. In love so deep that I finally understand happiness. You're happiness. Retrace your steps, you'll see yourself differently. Retrace my steps, you'll see me maturing. Retrace our steps, we'll fall in love again.

"I love you" is just noise. Our lips say everything our heart cannot when we kiss.

I love you.

2010-06-30T20:43:00.003+08:00

Hubby go back camp already. :)

I slept at 6am in the morning while Baby stayed up as he wanted to wake me up to go to SPCA! Hehe but he fell asleep while playing with his iPhone. Baby was so sweet because he even dimmed his screen so that he wouldn't wake me up. Hehehe.

I woke up at 5:30pm and woke Baby up as I was afraid that he would be late for booking in. He called back camp & realised he was supposed to book in at 10:30pm. He keep disturbing me say he 2230 book in. Make me think so long what is 2230. :(

Went to bathe and prepared to go to the coffee shop beside 346 to eat again. :) Bak chor mee!! I tripped while walking there and my toe nail broke. :( Walked back home and played Bejwelled with Hubby. I won him! HAHA. I am the first in my friends' list now. Baby kept scolding me lanjiao lang. :( He then lanjiao lang..

Hehe forgot to mention that Hubby helped me clip my toe nails! :) Sweety! HAHA. Hubby I want a Vuvuzela. HAHA.

Baby walked towards the lift then walked back cause he forgot his camp pass again. Hehe stupid boy. :)

Today Baby slapped me and made me cry. Hehehehe. No la he play play only. :) I love Baby a lot! Baby cough a lot. :( Friday faster come pls!!!

PLEASE MAKE MY JOURNEY IN MDIS A PLEASANT ONE. HAHA.

BABY.

2010-06-29T22:06:00.002+08:00

Happy 11 months. :)

Was supposed to go to SPCA today but we woke up late! Maybe we'll go tomorrow. Bathed and prepared before going to the coffee shop behind to eat! Baby was ordering noodle for me and the auntie gave him a heart shaped mushroom specially! HAHA. So sweet of her. :)

Ate finish and walked back home. Watching TV now! Hehe.

Happy birthday to Pearlyn! :)

Matt's coming back soon!! Yay! And I hope my Baby Guay will get well soon!

pictures

2010-06-28T21:39:00.007+08:00

Overdue pics!!!!

Today woke up late and Baby was coughing like hell! My Boyfriend went to My Doctor @ Lakeside to get his MC. I went Lakeside to meet him and ate there.

Reached home and we are watching TV together now. 2 more hours to our 11th month. :)

My Boyfriend is getting lazier and lazier!!!!!!!!!!!! :@

SURPRISE.

2010-06-27T23:48:00.005+08:00

24 June.

I was supposed to meet my cousin but didn't the last minute as I was late. :( Went to Maju to wait for my boyfriend and waited for 2 hours! Went back to Jurong Point to collect his watch. :) I hope he likes it! Hehehe. Went to have Burger King as I was feeling very hungry since I didn't eat anything yet and I waited so long! Saw Wang there. Heehee.

Went to Quan house. Wanted to watch soccer but the Mio set couldn't turn on for some reason. So we slacked and then went home!

25 June.

I told Baby to give me this day so we slept in! He was feeling very unwell anyway. He was running a high fever. :( I went to put on my make up and Baby kept asking why was I putting on make up. He kept wanting to know where I was going. Haha. Cymbeline, Baby & me went to Jp to buy a cake for Baby! :) I brought Baby along because I was afraid he would be bored at home! Haha.

We bought a cake that looks like a soccer ball! I hope Hubby likes it! The cake was durian flavoured! YUMMY! Went home and bought Mr Bean when we reached Lakeside! Forced Hubby to take a picture with the Happy Birthday Sign pasted on the glass. Heehee.

Walked home & I told Baby to have a rest first as he was running a fever. Cymbeline texted me and told me to bring Baby downstairs so when we went down, my whole family was there singing the Happy Birthday song for him! :)

I hope that Baby likes it too because it's the first time my family celebrated someone else's birthday. :) Baby face got cake! HAHA. Finished eating I starting photo spamming and Baby laid down on the sofa as his temperature had already reached 38.6'c.

Mummy made ginseng tea for him to drink! :)

26 June!!!!

His friends all arrived a little before 12 and called Mei & Di to go downstairs to bring them to the swimming pool's BBQ pit. I chose the BBQ pit because that was where Baby held my surprise birthday BBQ too! HEEHEE.

Once we excited the lift, he saw Kelvin's lorry. He didn't realise that his friends were here until he saw Quan's & Haihui's bike parking in front of Wenjie's car! HAHA. Spoiled the surprise!!

While walking towards the swimming pool, Baby was so scared that someone would come out to frighten him! HAHA. While walking towards the swimming pool, they sang the birthday song to him! HAHA. So sweet of them!

Took photos and then Wenjie smashed the cake on Baby's face! HAHA. They ran around the swimming pool & Baby jumped in! HAHA. Stupid boy, fever alr still play!!

Went back home and all couldn't decide where to go! Wanted to go bowling but everybody couldn't make up their minds! :@ Always like this!

Went downstairs and they played with their bikes before going to Fort Rd to eat. Reached Fort Rd and realised that it was closed already. So we went back to Timah. Wenjie drove very quickly. :( Was so scared.

Ate porridge at Timah as our dear birthday boy was feeling unwell! :) Kelvin sent us to NUH as Baby was feeling really unwell. They wanted to put him on drip as his heartbeat was going too fast. :( But stubborn him didn't want. He quarreled with the nurses & doctor! :@ No medicine! Stupid NUH! Went home after that.

Hehe, thank you to Meimei, Didi, Wenjie, Shiquan & of course Baby! Without Mei & Wenjie helping me I couldn't have surprised Baby. Heehee.

I hope Baby enjoyed himself too although he was running a high fever!!

I love you Dear!

Woke up and went Quan's house after going Gek Poh for dinner. Baby ate my medicine and he was feeling better already. They Mahjong-ed while I watched TV. Baby fever went down already by then. Hehe. Used Quan's brother com to put songs before Baby, Wenjie & me walked to Kel's house. We waited for Bran to come before going to West Coast's Mac.

Ghana so fast goal hehe. Went back to 7head to play soccer. Hehe baby play until so sweaty! Went back home after that. Robin drove very quickly cos he was angry. :@

Toy Story 3.

2010-06-27T20:02:00.001+08:00

Baby woke up early as he was having an asthma attack. He went to TTSH to see the doctor before coming back to sleep again.

Baby suddenly told me to go prepare as we were going to Jp to watch Toy Story 3!! He had already booked the tickets! Hehe. Thank you Baby for surprising me! :) I love you! Hehe.

Quickly prepared and went to Jp to get the tickets before having curry chicken noodle! The movie was awesome! HEEHEEHEE.

baby celestene cried after the show as the show was too touching .

HEHE Kurbe Guay wrote that!! HAHA. I never la. :( 30-ed home and watched TV! Went to Lakeside buy ciggy for smelly boy!!

2010-06-26T16:39:00.001+08:00

October 22, 2009.

Today, I laughed the hardest. Today, I'm a happy girl. Tonight, I'll sleep tight, & remember, you told me to never leave you. Baby, curb your temper. :) But no matter what, you're perfect to me. I love you, Hubby Guay!

2010-06-26T16:32:00.000+08:00

I am feeling very unhappy and unappreciated now.

Kurbe's 20th.

2010-06-26T00:00:00.001+08:00

Hey Sweety, it's your 20th birthday already!!!

Firstly, HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY MY BABY BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want you to know that I love you so much. Sorry if I've not planned something memorable or nice, I promise you that your 21st will be a good one! :)

Secondly Darling, I hope you enjoyed your birthday! I don't know if you want this to be a lengthy post or not so I'll just write whatever I feel like telling you!!

I feel so lucky to have you. You're really important to me and you're part of my daily routine already! Baby, if I'm honest, I'll tell you this; I'm not really sure of your feelings right now. I don't know if I am still important to you because honestly, I feel as though we've drifted apart and I'm only someone who takes up your weekend space. Please don't drift away, I need you. I know that recently we have awkward silences during phone calls -- something we never used to have. I miss you.

Every time we quarrel, how I wish I could be like you, ignoring. When I don't text, you don't text. When I don't call, you don't call. When I don't care, you don't care either. If I left, would you make me stay? Baby I need assurance right now.

Everybody told me to never ever show you how much I loved you. They say that every boy will take it for granted and use it as a trump card. You're my sweetest dream and my only fear. You know that? I don't want to show you how much I love you. I'm afraid that you'll take advantage of it. Yet Baby, do you know what? I let you know how much I love you because I felt that you deserved to feel everything from me. No less. You deserved to be loved and feel loved. I love you. I hope you appreciate that.

Dear, no matter how tough things get in the future, I am willing to stick by you. You're 20 now, have you thought of what you want for our future? Whatever we've planned, I'll do my part. Will you do your part too? Baby, let's work hard together for the beautiful future we've created. I know that I'm sensitive. I know that you're stubborn. I know that I make a fuss out of nothing. I know that you don't compromise as much already. But this love is just as perfect to me. It will never change. Are we still in our honeymoon period?

I'm glad that I met you Baby. I'm glad that I'm able to grow old with you and just to be with you. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for everything that you've given me.

You know what makes me stick with you every time we quarrel? No matter how upset I am, no matter how negatively I'm thinking, I think of the time you looked after me during the accident. I love you.

I hope you like the present I've given you. I know that even if you didn't like the design of it, you would keep quiet. So I really asked a lot of people for opinion. Hope you like it Dear. :)

You're lying beside me now, sleeping. This is one of the moments where I feel very lucky to have you. One of the moments which I wish will stop forever. :)

Have you ever felt lucky to have me?

Dear, sorry that I'm always so sensitive. I'm sorry that I don't give you enough space as well. Sorry that I'm not a good girlfriend. This is how I feel. Every time I'm with you, I don't feel like I'm good enough. You're really perfect to me. Just that sometimes I wish that you would show me you love me more and for you to give me more attention.

You're treat me the best. You are the more handsome boy I've seen. Your flaws make you stand out. The way you love to go fishing makes me want to dote on you like a little boy. The way you hug me makes me know that I'm safe with you. The way you kiss me lets me know that I didn't make a mistake. The way you tell me that you love me just tells me how much you really do. The way you hold my hand lets me know that you'll always be here for me and the way you scold me lets me know even more how much you love me.

Thank you for being the best. I know things aren't going so smoothly with your family right now and it's all my fault. So Dear, I'm trying my best to make you part of my family and letting you feel comfortable here. I know you don't like eating cakes but silly boy, everybody deserves a birthday cake on their birthday. AND YOU'RE NOT GOING TO HAVE ONLY ONE, YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE 2!

Baby, thank you for taking care of my family as well. Thank you for being the best you can be.

Baby, I just want you to know that I love you and that I'm thankful for everything that you've done for me. Thank you for looking after me, thank you for protecting me, thank you for caring for me, thank you for loving me and thank you for being mine.

You're 20 now Dear, enjoy your day. :)

Happy Birthday, Kurbe Guay Chun Leng.

2010-06-24T04:03:00.000+08:00

真正爱你的男人，一下子说不出真正爱你的理由，只知道自己顾不上注意别人。

真正爱你的男人，其实总惹你生气，你却发觉不了他到底做错了什么。

真正爱你的男人，很少当面赞美你，可是心里肯定你是他最棒的。

真正爱你的男人，会在你忘记回复他短信时狠狠地说你一顿。

真正爱你的男人，只可能在你一个人的面前流眼泪，当你触摸到他时，也触摸到了那颗只为你跳动的心。

真正爱你的男人，会默默地记住你不经意说过的话，在某时某刻重复它们。

真正爱你的男人，不会轻易做出承诺，因为他想让自己成为你心中说话最算话的男子汉，只想给你最可靠最安全的幸福。

真正爱你的男人，总告诉你不要胡思乱想，因为其实他在为你们谋划着最美丽真实的未来。同时让你无忧无虑地等待他要给你的惊喜。

真正爱你的男人，可能不像你一样清楚地记得某些纪念日，他觉得爱你是每时每刻的，并不是靠这几天简单的日子。

真正爱你的男人，不会轻易对你当面说“我爱你”，因为他为你做过的每件事都已经这么说了。除非在非常时刻，为了不让你无端地误解他。

真正爱你的男人，总觉得有些话只说一遍就够了，因为你已经了解他的心。说得多了，他会觉得不珍贵。

真正爱你的男人，如果他去机场接你，不会像你期望的那样捧着玫瑰大声叫“亲爱的”，只是自然地提过你的行李，然后想用眼睛抱紧你似的心疼地说，怎么瘦得像豆芽菜了？

真正爱你的男人，当你发脾气时，只会不做声地听你把火发完，然后慢慢地说，你明天有课吗？早点睡吧。

真正爱你的男人，不懂当你生气挂掉电话后应该立即打来，过了若干小时后会发条短信问你消气了没有？如果你质问他为何这么久才打来，他会理直气壮的说，你生气时我的解释一定没有用，等你的火消了，我的解释才有效果。

真正爱你的男人，总是叫你小姑娘，可是每次他做什么重大的决定，却总想先听听你的建议。

真正爱你的男人，不喜欢玩具小毛熊，却一直把你送他的小熊放在床头。

真正爱你的男人，当和你发生争执时，总是控制不了地先妥协，先承认“我错了”，过后发来短信以“神经病”开头，以“宝贝”结尾。事实上你也清楚，这次是你有点无理取闹。

真正爱你的男人，很想很想你时，也会买玫瑰送你，傻傻地等着你，却不知道自己捧的是月季。没关系，他的心里送的是玫瑰。

真正爱你的男人，都不甜，但是他的吻能传递他嘴巴所有的热情。

真正爱你的男人，当听到你对他讲很“酸”的话时，他反而会装得很正经，其实心里很甜很甜。

真正爱你的男人，如果不能经常见到你，他会让自己忙碌起来，为了不去想你，因为他知道一想你将会一发不可收拾．．

希望下一分，真正爱你的人会是你第一个也会是最后一个。

Is this nice...

2010-06-24T02:31:00.005+08:00

Is this nice?

Hi. I'm still blogging. Is anyone reading this space? I woke up today around 6.30pm. I couldn't sleep any longer and went to eat my dinner.

My boyfriend went to Timah during his nights out. I hope he behaved. He went to sleep around 2.30am. I am bored now. It is 2.44am now. I don't like it when he doesn't reply my posts in Facebook and makes me look like I'm talking to myself when he can reply his friends. I think I look funny talking to myself but still I hope it makes him happy. Him being happy is the most important for me.

I don't know if I should meet Wen or my cousin tmr. I miss both of them badly. They are girls I can trust my life with.

I am not feeling very happy right now. I don't know why. I hope one day I'll be able to express myself clearly.

I think that I'm very lucky to be able to be with Kerbe again after losing contact for so long. I think that I'm very lucky to have such a boyfriend. I'm most certain he's the one. He makes me very happy at times but can also crush my heart. He is someone who can really control me since he knows what I want. I love you.

Is the watch nice? Please comment.